31 April
‘hey glad to hear that youre enjoying yourself at new agency – didnt sound like you were too happy at the last place. So, you now have; new flat, new job and fiat 500 on its way!!! sounds like everythings fallen into place. Social life (and boyfriend ) next – and not that Italian `jewlery dealer´ that you was boking in India!! I emailed Annabel – sounds like shes doind well too. Not been in contact with Mina – but i dont really know her anyhow. Sounds like i need to sort myself out next!? Off to the algarve next week – Reckon that ill be heading back to london at the end of May… then eaither work or back to SE Asia or India. Who knows?’
Just read this. He sent it the day after he got my last message. Boking?
‘Oh excellent. Well, you will have to come and see me if you are in London! Where are you at the moment?’
7 April
‘Not really. Made the mistake of going into oxford street today. Staying in now. Job is going well but early days. What are you up to?x’
I don’t care what it is as long as it doesn’t involve turning up at my place for the night with a bag of coke.
‘Bec,I was up & down oxford st for yours today… Dreadful wasn’t it,I got some bits to pump up my wardrobe,then spent 4 hours putting up my GodSons trampoline & now I just got back to the village,the moon looks amazing tonight,but I’m gonna work on my new look x’
‘sorry but what road are residing now?’
He so wants to come round.
6 April
‘Rebecca doing anything nice this easter? how’s your job? Kramer x’
30 March
‘So how’d yesterday go at work? I’m on school holidays so spend most of it down the front & loafing. but I open a gallery down here next month…x’
‘Lucky you! Work is really good so far. Gallery sounds amazing. Will it be your posters?x’
‘yeah prints,ceramics & workspace,it’s only gonna open at select times & parties really,but it’ll be fun,something to try & no pressure so all should be good…… where are you working & how are you doing there & how you finding putney? x’
29 March
‘Yeah Bec, I’m all good… how you finding putney? where in putney are you? It’s gonna be nice today, the sun looks amazing xxx’
‘You are up early! Starting new job today. Just arrived. My new place is off Putney Hill. X’
Kramer is so over his girlfriend.
28 February
‘Hi Rebecca, firstly thank for your business it is much appreciated, now on a more personal note, i hope you don’t think i,m being too cheeky bu i have to let you know, i think you are a really nice person, not to mention breathtakingly gorgeous, if u r single(doubtful) wandered if u want 2 meet 4 a drink smtime, W’
My removal man. I’ve just moved. Really, really nice. South African with ambitions to open some kind of animal sanctuary. Invited me to South Africa this summer while saying ‘goodbye’. Has a large currant type mole on his face. I just don’t fancy him. I wish I did.
‘Thank you! I am enjoying my single life at the moment so i better say no to a drink. But very very nice of you to ask-tempting! I will def be in touch if I ever make a trip to south africa. Rebecca’
14 February
‘Happy St.Valentines Rebecca X’
‘Happy V Day! Must see you soon.x’
‘Rebecca let’s try & do it soon then x’
Oh, Kramer…
22 January
‘Looks like the flat is definitely going ahead. I’m hoping I will be in there mid February. Very excited about that! Come to London! I need a lodger. The flat is gorgeous and I have two bathrooms. You can sign on the dole and get it paid for. Bingo! Having said that, if I get a short term tenant then I will go I travelling again too. That’s funny you would like to go to India again. Mina is back there now. V jealous. x’
21 January
I’m at Jessica’s leaving/engagement/30th birthday party at The Loft in Clapham.
Tears keep welling up when I talk to her. I’m going to miss her so much.
I invited my friend from work along too. A gorgeous black girl. I gave her the heads up that one of the guys there likes black girls.
As the night goes on she gets drunker and drunker, throwing herself at him. He noticed her when she got here and I knew he was tapping Jessica for the lowdown. He’s not interested now. I can tell. The harder she tries the further he is repelled. God, it’s so simple. She reminds me of me five years ago.
On the way home I tell her what Jessica had said.
He’ll fuck her but he really likes a French girl. He’s seeing another one as well. Naughty.’
‘I want his email address.’
‘Why?’
‘Because we got on.’
‘Just leave it. You’re better off out. You’ll get your fingers burned.’
‘Well, tell your sister if he wants to see me again… I’m interested.’
About
‘When I grow up I’m going to marry a prince, Granny.’
Fast forward 27 years. I’m a hot, successful, kind and affectionate, officially ‘grown up’ girl-about-town. Still in search of The One. It’s New Year’s Eve and I’m in bed. Alone. Tanked up on Valium.
The quest has been active now for the best part of 20 years. I know he’s out there. I just need to find out where and how to find him. Things have got to change.
This is going to be my year. I just know it. So I have decided to document my experiences to amuse more than anything else. In so doing, the creative process may provide some kind of personal enlightenment and help face my demons too. And who knows. The journey may lead me to my prince. And where the chronicles begin.
